Good Morning Everynyan

I... I guess I should be, like, Finnishnated by now. Mind you I still fail to check the left-hand side of the road when crossing so I've had some, uhh, close calls. I've spent the months after coming home mainly at work training delivering fixings of 2D art for a small game company I've worked for before, some concept art but mainly a huge rework on some more important illustrations. This has led to the regrettable situation where I haven't really had energy to draw stuff outside work.... except for this one project. I have no news on the field of animation but boy am I going to have something to show you in a while! We (or I, perhaps) have finally began serious work on our webcomic! It's still without a name but there's going to be Fair Folk and normal people and lots and lots of plants, and it's going to be beuauiiutiful. I hope. We still need to figure out where to host it since the format is not the most usual one, but it is probably going to be found on Smackjeeves at least to begin with. I am so pumped I'd just rather shove the whole thing here than wait any longer but unfortunately I don't think that would serve any meaningful purpose.

I managed to snatch a table on the Desucon Artists' Alley and am going to be sitting and selling there with another AA friend, Ered. I'm still not completely set on what it is I'm going to be selling this year but I have a couple of ideas... It's just drawing the comic project has been such a big deal I've really had no time to seriously put into working on any of those ideas. :( One or two at least are in a WIP stage rather than not formalised at all, but... yeah. It's hard. My life is hard. I think I want to try including some Trigun this year, I just re-watched the series and besides I never got to try and sell any of the older ones (not inherently a bad thing).

I was in a really bad mood yesterday. I was colouring this lineart I really liked and then suddenly I just got really frustrated over my style of colouring, all the shininess and being slave to the form and making things smooth and nice. I wanted to change and I wanted it NOW. This didn't happen and thus my day progressed in fits of crying naps on the sofa and going back to the computer, sulking at the computer, colouring but only feeling agony and anger, back to the sofa, back to the picture, still feeling awful but still colouring, distracting self with tumblr, flipping layers on and off and so on. I didn't feel so bad waking up this morning but I am still angry at myself for not being able to colour like people whole colours I really like; I want something surreal, painterly, blotchy and messy, but at the same time I'm wondering if anyone would appreciate those qualities in my work. I have a complex over staying inside the lines. And a paradox of resenting textures because they make digital pictures look better if used right.

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