Our first fight

I had my first exchange crisis over the weekend! Yaaaay. I had just done my showreel on Friday and then had to work on pitch pictures and I felt completely incompetent. I just couldn't communicate what I wanted and I was the shittiest animator on earth and everyone else was so much more laborious and I might have been a tiny bit homesick too. But maybe that was more about having someone to physically hold on to rather than actually being home, because mostly things have been considerably easy here. I also cried in front of people I really didn't know that well (that seems to be my default strategy in a crisis) and I feel I confused them when the crying took so long to stop. I am already learning new things about myself, like that I am a crybaby! Also that I like to throw fits. I would like to think they make me feel better faster in the end but really I'm not even sure about that.

Anyway, I'm okay now, plunged myself into new stupid things to do, like animating in Photoshop - what sort of an idiot came up with that?? I need to have this finished by next Monday and I am so bad and it is so slow and AAAAAAAAAAAAAARARARGRRGH!! This taught me that despite what I previously may have thought I am actually pretty well off with Flash because goddamn if this isn't the worst animation I've ever done. D: I will show you when it's ready and then you may cry with me.

I think my new swimming hobby might be at a crucial role in keeping me alert enough to do animation for nine hours a day. This is the first time in my life I've ever paid for being able to exercise and... it's okay. Today I came home super tired, maybe because I didn't go to the family pool afterwards like usually to get my water massage (???), but usually it's been - dare I even say it - ...refreshing? Maybe all the exercise propaganda is just getting under my skin. Anyway, for some reason I always manage to buy really stupid things in the store after swimming. Today I bought:

dried fruit in fancy package x 2

scone x 2

cornish pasty x 2

I have to say I prefer lihapiirakka to that huge pasty thing. It was too big. There was too much... not meat. Taste was bland. I guess this was to be expected.

After this short but crucial update I am so ready to go to bed. Tomorrow: school from 9 to 6, then more animating. Goodnight!